So, ok, fine, sure: I'm not one to talk. It's been almost a month since I last tacked up a piece of my life or art here for the world to scrutinize (read: my friends to laugh at or commiserate about). I realize that there are bloggers with more discipline; I realize that the holydaze hit hard; I realize that because of my techie limitations my blog is not really very pretty; I realize that with the advent of the Facebook Monster, people might look at blogger like others once looked at....I don't know, spandex? Mullets? Do I have to take pictures of myself wearing spandex and a mullet to get my point across? Don't test me.
Point is, I just went through the blog roll of my colleagues: the half dozen or so others (you know who you are) who struggled through an MFA program and then walked out into the streets of their lives and kept their passion, at least for a while, for the written word pumping by way of blogs--literary, clumsy, funny, tragic, multimedia, stubbornly not so, colorful or plain, political or silly. And you know what? They're almost all dead. And thus begins my grieving.
I do appreciate the elegies and homages and apologies and farewells offered up--like chocolate at a funeral--but it does NOT take away the sting, the fear that because this medium has become stale and people's lives have doubled in complexity and busyness, that I will lose my clammy grip on the strands that still bind me to them--to you.
So that is to say, I'm still blogging. Hard. Show up here and let me know you are not without breath or words in the world people, please. God knows we need a little community to survive the professional disappointment of MFAs.
Hugs and scribbles.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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eli, the dependable scold of the mfa community. come on, my sweet....one of the reasons people are not blogging is that they are out there WRITING. Like Shable and her book. (okay, I know of no other examples....wait, Dave, okay, Dave. Dave is writing real stuff too.)
I, on the other hand - I never started blogging and so can't be scolded about my discontinued impulse to share. There comes a time, or so I've heard, when taking virtual pictures of yourself - in whatever form - becomes a guilt-ridden, full time job which gets in the way of living said life interestingly & freely.
And if you ever used the #$#%@ PHONE and called people, then you wouldn't be so disconnected. Ahem. You're beyond mullets in regards to the phone. You're still wearing a toupee.
Waiting....
I have never been a very faithful blogger. In fact, I'm at home with Finn today who had a fever and worse but seems to be on the mend. We're watcing Elmo's World now. I'll tell you I'm more concerned about my failure to write for the past several months although it seems like there's plenty of things to worry about these days. But you know I do like to read other people's blogs. My own is too boring for words. Oh, and Jack Van Impe strongly implied that Obama is the Antichrist. If that's true (which, of course, it isn't) what did that make Bush? We had 8 years of Tribulation! By the way, I like Obama, LIKE, but I won't be worshipping him anytime soon...unless he is the Antichrist and then I'll be compelled to worship him then, huh? People are so grievous sometimes. Frankly, I'm confused should I be more worried about Obama as Antichrist, the total economic meltdown of the Financial markets, or Jessica Simpson's supposed weight problem. (Whatever, dude.)
--Fisties from Finn and me.
I never though I would hear you say (or read you write) "I am Blogging. Hard." (pause)
Well, I won't be doing Facebook any time soon, though everyone seems to think it is THE way to stay in touch. I much prefer traditional personal emailing and blogging and think I always will, even if I'm not the most consistent blogger. I like this more involved channel of creativity and sharing.
Looking forward to checking up on your promise of blogging hard!!
hey eli!
don't worry-- we all rockin ina free world..
and i'm rockin into seattle next week.. coming with my band to play some west coast shows- seattle on march 5thursday somewhere in u district- my brothers gettin details..
hope to connex..
peace and more
for what its worth, one of my favorite things to do on a lazy day is find a new blog that i can get lost in for a good hour or so, especially themed blogs (eg..just found Julie's.."Spanish Girl Departing", lovely.)
its like a cheaper, faster, modern version of roaming into an empty library and running into a good book.
keep goin HARD. you never know who's reading, soakin in bits and pieces of your life.
e, your inspiring words brought tears to my eyes and shame to my heart, b/c then i started thinking i should be writing "serious" work. who wants to know play i saw last week (in the next room, or the vibrator play by sarah ruhl) and who really cares about the sad state of my computer. i don't know why i blog, really, and maybe that's why it's titled nothing but hat's. i am so glad to still have your ear, my friend. thanks much, and i look forward to reading/hearing more from your corner of the world...
Jess! Thanks for the scolding/other perspective. I offer a redux: if anyone is not blogging 'cause they are writing (and the two have proved mutually conflictive) I retract my grievance entirely. Still, Jess, love, you amaze me: the ability to get offended when you're not even a blogger! I would love to see your blog (pause).
Ditto DD. And once i have kids I will either be uploading their various pictures all afternoon or leave the blogosphere forever, I'm sure.
Ahem. Yes, well. Point taken. I have had my comeback tour planned for, oh, hmm, forever? And yet it's been a difficult start, namely because of tireless questions such as "How Many Times Can I Be Fired for My Blog?" ...Which really boils down to the question of how to write my truth, speak from the heart, and not get shit on because of it. Really, I guess it's always a gamble, and so perhaps I'll be back sooner than I think. Maybe under an open blog, maybe under one with a password. We'll see.
I am now fully supported, chastised, renewed and also going to be held to account for my pledge to "blog hard." Gulp. Pause. I love you all.
oh, see? This is nice. Just came back adn read these comments. The thing is, eli ------ you can't lose the people who you've touched and who love you, even if the years loosen the ties. They are still there. they come in droves when you need them...or when you call upon them.....and sometimes just out of the woodwork like ancient spirits who knew you wanted audience for your voice.
Even if, say, you don't know what andrea Q ate for breakfast or what amusing little incident happened to DD on the way to the video store........you know these people have your back always.
(and while we're on this note....I do think I want to start blogging, too. soon, i hope!)
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